It's fascinating really... I am able to find good in everyone and see some redeeming features, but when it comes to myself I'm pretty rubbish at it.
The F word (feelings) often gets in the way of what my head tells me is quite true, so I may know I'm good at certain things but a little voice, deep down - harking back to a time where I was told nothing was good enough, try harder - says hmm, but are you really?
The reality is yes, I really am, but somehow those feelings slip in and before I know it I'm doubting myself. Doubt can be crippling, in the same way that overblown self-belief, arrogance, can be destructive.
Yet God tells me I'm precious. I'm his daughter. He loves me so much he was willing to make the ultimate sacrifice for me.
Today I need a reality check... God blesses each of us and I need to try and keep things in perspective!
Dear Jill,
ReplyDeleteI know you know this but as a gentle reminder, you are not responsible for 'perfecting your faith' - Jesus is! When you look at yourself, when you doubt yourself, look past yourself and see Jesus who is in you, just as you are in Him. Whether you feel him or not does not change the fact that he is there.
It's all about Jesus and less about Jill! ;)
Yours, Nigel
John 15:4 'Remain in me, and I will remain in you.'
Heb 12:2 'Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith...'
John 14:6 'Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me."'